February 19

A funny thing about maintaining a vigil...everyone makes predictions about when a person will die.  Some say people hang on until some event occurs like a visit from a loved one or a special day like a birthday or anniversary.  Others look at physical signs such as skin coloration or swollen joints.  I have grown weary of hearing predictions.  All I know is: Judy will die when the time is right.  As humans, we are very impatient and cannot understand why a person would hang on when they are non responsive, but I know when all this is said and done, we will see God's wisdom in the time he appoints for Judy to take his hand and enter into a new place where there are no more tears, no more sorrow, no more chemo treatments, no more bad news, no more surgeries, no more disorganized closet space.  I know that Judy is still aware of our comings and goings.  When I entered the room today, Judy turned her head ever so slightly to acknowledge my arrival.  She does not have the strength to move her lips, but when I look into her eyes, I sense a "knowing".  She is thinking who knows what?  Did Alvin Vim the sink?  Did he water the plants?  Has he been washing the crystal by hand instead of the dishwasher?  Has Alvin paid the phone bill? What are my friends and family doing?  I really don't know what she is thinking, but she does know she is loved by many.